Chapter 1 Rebirth
The pain of
suffocation after the rope strangled her neck was not greater than the pain she
already has experienced in her heart; instead, Shen Wen greeted this cruel death
with some delight. Six months ago, Bei Rong suddenly started a war, with
500,000 soldiers a so-called million strong army sweeping across the northern
border.
Her father, Shen
Yong, the Marquis of Zhenbei, with his elder son, Shen Yi, and second son, Shen
Jian, led the army to resist, but without food or aid, the fortress cities fell
one after another in the course of three months.
Shen Jian was
killed in battle against the enemy, the Marquis of Zhenbei was killed in battle
when the northern town Yan City was broken, Shen Yi was killed in battle when
escaping from the siege to seek help and there were no survivors from the
200,000-strong Shen family army.
After the
BeiRong’s army entered the mainland, The youngest son of the Shen family in the
capital, Shen Zhuo, and the daughter of the Shen family, Shen Xiang, who was
known as " General's tiger daughter", started a private army and a
volunteer army to fight the enemy in the north with the reinforcements led by
Zhang Zhen, the Marquis of Pingyuan, and supervised by the Third Prince. After
the reinforcements met the main force of the BeiRong, they fell into a
heavy siege and the two armies were entangled for nearly 20 days.
The Marquis of
Pingyuan was killed in battle and Shen Xiang was caught in the midst of the
enemy and could not escape, so she killed herself to avoid being humiliated.
In order to
maintain their strength, the Third Prince and the eldest son of the Marquis of
Pingyuan, Zhang Yunming, and Shen Zhuo led the remnants of their troops to
break out of the siege. After breaking through the siege, on the way back to
the south, they were ambushed by the elite soldiers sent by the imperial court.
All the
remaining soldiers were wiped out, and Zhang Yunming and Shen Zhuo escorted the
Third prince back to a mountain wall, where they were killed by a thousand
arrows.
There is
evidence that the Marquis of Zhenbei and the Marquis of Pingyuan and the Third
Prince had planned to collude with the BeiRong to invade, so that the Third
Prince could take advantage of the opportunity to gain military power and force
his way into the imperial palace. Unfortunately, the Bei Rong was so powerful and the
Marquis of Zhenbei failed in his attempt, but he played with fire and lost his
family soldiers' lives instead.
The most
important evidence in this accusation was provided by Shen Wen, the youngest
daughter of the Marquis of Zhenbei who was already married. She was so righteous
that she offered up a letter indicating that her father and brothers had
collaborated with the enemy.
When the Emperor
learned of their trickery, he decided to abandon the capital and moved to south. He
called on the people to take revenge for the death of the soldiers and gave all
his remaining military strength to eradicate the Third prince, a rebellious son
with evil intentions, and the remaining sons of the Marquis of Zhenbei and the
Marquis of Pingyuan.
He also issued a
decree to remove the title of Marquis of Zhenbei and Marquis of Pingyuan. The
men of the Shen family and the Zhang family were all executed and the women
were sold as government slaves. In recognition of Shen Wen's meritorious
service in reporting the rebellious and traitorous people, she was spared
death. She was given the title of Princess* Huide, and her husband was promoted
to a higher rank.
*Junzhu-Secondary
princess title also county lord
The mother of
the Marquis of Zhenbei, old Madam Gu Shi, died by hitting her head in front of the
ancestral tablet when she heard the news. Yang Shi, the wife of the
Marquis of Zhenbei, who had borne three sons and two daughters, rebuked the
officers and soldiers who had come to deliver the decree and arrest the
culprits. And then she ordered a fire to be raised, setting fire to the firewood
piled up in the Marquis of Zhenbei's house, and walked into the fire by herself. Liu
Shi, the wife of the eldest son and Yan Shi the wife of the
second son both committed suicide by hanging themselves. An old guard
escaped with Liu Shi's sons, aged seven and five, but he was caught and
executed on the spot before he could leave the city.
The Marquis of
Pingyuan's house would have been more or less the same ending if it hadn't been for
the odd incident. Most of the men who did not die on the battlefield died by
the Imperial sword, the women either killed themselves or were killed, and only
some of the young ones were sold as official slaves.
The lone survivor of the killing, Shen Wen had never showed her face from the beginning to end. She had just been married for a year. She was married to Zheng Qian, a member of the Crown Prince's aid staff and member of Zhan shifu ,fifth ranking offical in Yu De xian ma.(official title) herald( to the crown prince in Imperial Chinese.)
*The Crown prince's counseling institution in the Ming Dynasty was called Zhan Shifu. yu de Department of attendent, where xianma is to proofreading, edit of documents and books.
Although Shen
Wen was born in the a family of military General, she has been a quiet person
since she was a child and loved to read poetry and books, which made her very
different from Shen Xiang, who had been trained in martial arts since she was a
child and was used to using a spear. She was even more alienated from her three
older brothers who played with swords every day. The old madam and the madam of
the Marquis Mansion also have a military family background and they both like
people who are quick and cheerful, so Shen Wen thinks they are vulgar and
cannot compare with the wives of the civil officials in the capital.
As a result,
Shen Wen always felt out of place at home and longed to marry a civil servant
and have her own mansion where she could run the house according to the
etiquette in those books.
Shen Xiang is
obsessed with martial arts and refuses to get married which causes Madam Yang a
headache. When Shen Wen was 13 or 14 years old and was approached for marriage,
she said that she would listen to her mother and that the meaning was that she
would get married as soon as possible. Although Madam Yang felt that her
younger daughter was too weak, she liked her obedience and made plans for her
marriage first. Although the eldest daughter was not yet married, Shen Xiang's
situation was really special. Moreover, the Zhenbei Hou is a military official,
not as refined as those civil officials. So and it was a happy event that the
youngest daughter got married first.
In fact, it was
Shen Wen's own wish to marry Zheng Qian. Her Mother had taken her to see all
the families that had come to her for marriage. She only liked Zheng Qian's
scholarly appearance and expressed her intentions to her mother. Although
marriage is a matter of parents' orders and matchmaking, there are still
opportunities for both men and women to meet before the wedding, such as flower
parties and banquets, and the parents will also ask their children's wishes, so
as to avoid arranging a marriage that is incompatible with each other.
After the
marriage, Shen Wen and Zheng Qian really respected each other. They never
argued and were polite and courteous with their in-laws. And their home was
quiet and harmonious, which was very different from the bickering that often
broke out in the Zhenbei HouFu. Shen Wen was very satisfied.
Six months ago,
the border was unstable and Shen Wen began to worry about the safety of her
father and brother and then the bad news came one after another, making Shen
Wen feel worried and scared. However, Zheng Qian was so busy with his official
duties that he often did not return for several nights. When he did, he would
only say a few words in a hurry, saying that the war was urgent and that he had
important matters to attend to which Shen Wen could only shed tears in the
house alone. She wanted to return to the Marquis's residence several times, but
was not allowed to do so by her mother-in-law. She said that the situation was
unstable and it was better not to move around much.
A month or so
ago, she found that she could no longer leave the courtyard and that all the
people she had been using had changed. She was surrounded by a group of a dozen
maids, and her rising, lying, sitting and standing were all watched. While
neither Zheng Qian nor her in-laws showed up any more, and she couldn't even go
to pay her respects if she wanted to.
Today, she
learned from her servants about the fate of the Marquis of Zhenbei's family,
and one of them even said that she had contributed the letters. She was so
shocked and angry. Before she could cry out, she saw two men entering the
courtyard with a rope. She was already surprised to see that the men had
entered the inner courtyard, but the three maids were already holding her down
and the two men had wrapped the rope around her neck.
Shen Wen opened
her mouth, but didn't know what to say. Want to see Zheng Qian? What is there
to see? Isn't it obvious? Zheng Bei Hou Fu was brought down in
her name, and to cover up the truth, she had to die too.
Want to ask him
why he married her in the first place? What was the point of that? Zheng Qian
was working for the Crown Prince, and doesn't her current fate explain
everything?
Wanted to ask
him if he had her in his heart? The two had gotten along well over the past year,
but he was able to get two stranger men to strangle her, so was there any need to
say what he had in heart? ......
Suddenly the
pain disappeared and Shen Wen stood up from her body and looked at her neck
drooping in the noose that the two men were vigorously pulling. She
"saw" people's thoughts and words lingering like smoke above their
heads: "Young Madam is so unlucky ......" "And so stupid
......" "Now the official can marry that one ......”
Shen Wen
floated out of the courtyard and watched as his underlings went to answer to
Zheng Qian, who instructed them to cast the body into a mass grave. Then Zheng
Qian went to see his parents and they spoke, declaring to the public that Shen
Wen had died of illness. But no bones were put in the coffin; they did not want
Shen Wen to be buried in the Zheng family's ancestral tomb......
Shen Wen drifted
towards the Marquis Residence, which had burned to the ground. From afar she
seemed to see souls of acquaintances wandering there; she did not move forward,
but left. She could not go to see her mother and grandmother, her
sisters-in-law who had arranged her marriage, and the two children whom she had
previously found disturbing. Though she knew she hadn't offered any letters,
she feared that they believed it......
She drifted
outside the city, swept past the waves of refugees everywhere, and headed north
past the vast horse caravans of the BeiRong to find the battlefield strewn with
corpses.
She dared not
approach for fear of bumping into the Third Brother, the arrogant young man who
had always laughed at her as a child for being dumb and stupid, who was both a
scholar and a martial artist.
She was
searching for the place where Shen Xiang had died. She also dared not see her,
dared not tell her that she was wrong, that she should not have laughed at her
for being so rude and unlike a woman. She just wanted to see the place where
Shen Xiang had once fought and killed.
She went to the
northern part of the country, the borderland soaked with the blood and flesh of
the Shen family's soldiers. Clumps of souls soared far away. She did not dare
to come close for fear of meeting her father, whom she admired, her elder
brother, whom she respected, and her second brother, who always had a smile on
his face. ...... She could not face them......
In the midst of
the fighting and confusion, the imperial court abandoned the capital and moved
to the south, at the same time seeking peace in return for the cession of half
of its kingdom. Bei Rong soldiers were also tried and horses were also
exhausted. The two sides called off the war.
The emperor
built another capital in the south, seeking immortality medicine and died of a
nervous breakdown. The crown prince succeeds to the throne and amidst the
singing and dancing, Zheng Qian marries the empress's cousin and becomes a
second-ranking official.
In the south,
the new emperor did not want to be strong and progressive, but instead sought
peace. Internally, he was jealous of the good and jealous of the virtuous, and
he often went back on his word. Within a few years, the South was full of
refugees and the government was corrupt. There were bandits everywhere. ......
The war between the north and the south resumed, and the northern army won, but
it was not well governed. In the midst of the people's unhappiness, various
parties embrace the regent kings and another round of chaos.....
None of this
mattered to Shen Wen, she just endlessly wandered around the original Marquis
Mansion (Houfu), that battlefield, the fortress in the north and so on.
For many, many years, she dared not come too close, lest she runs into the
spirits of her loved ones. Only gradually, when she knew they had all left, did
she wander carefully through those places.
Things and
people have changed, the country is different, but Shen Wen is imprisoned in
her own held thoughts.
Again and again
she searched for traces of those who did not exist, trying to relive scenes
that had long since disappeared. She had also listened to conversations of
those people who had done it and after learning the ins and outs of the whole
plot to trap the Marquis Mansion and the Third Prince. But anger and resentment
were not as heavy as the self-blame she felt for herself, especially as she
watched the suffering of those who had harmed others before they lived and
after they died, she was left with nothing but disdain for herself.
As time passed
and the world changed, people talked less about that period of history, and in
the end it was only occasionally found in books.
Shen Wen watched
indifferently as the city and countryside changed again and again in the midst
of war and peace. Sometimes she wanders around, but most often she lingers in
the places where her relatives died.
She did not know
that if measured against earthly time she would sometimes stand for ten years
on the ancient battlefield that had become a transportation hub, with countless
vehicles passing through her shadow. Sitting for thirty years on the rocks of
the mountains in the north of the country, gazing longingly at a land devoid of
the desolation of the past......
Perhaps it is
because when she was alive she did not understand herself and did not see
others clearly that she had to gaze so long after her death, hoping to see the
world clearly.
Slowly, she was
able to "see" not only people's words and fragments of thought, but
later she was able to "see" through matter and see that different
things were actually objects vibrating at different frequencies. After many
more years of staring, she found that her mind could become a force, entering
those frequencies and changing them, thus moving objects.
She began to try
to move things, and in order to check the effect, she went specifically to
places where there were living people to move. With people gasping in
amazement, she knew she had succeeded in moving objects such as chairs rather
than whims.
Being able to
use her mind has made Shen Wen lingering a little more colourful. As well as
looking back and forth at those places as always, she was able to read. She
read what people had said about that period of history in the collection and in
the libraries of later generations, angry or delighted by the words. The
windless pages of the book used to make people run away screaming in terror.
At first, if
someone wrote something that made her angry, she would still find the author's
house to mess with if that person was still alive. Later, she just read it and
went back to those places to think back on the past. Bit by bit, she remembers
her short life, hating that she can't think clearly about each day.
She even
painted, but unfortunately with the brush mastered by her intention was unable
to paint the picture she wanted. Although people wrote to understand the causes
and consequences of that period of history, the Emperor's suspicions, the Crown
Prince clearing the way for himself and so on, those who studied the military,
even made examples of battles and explained the gains and losses......
However, Shen
Wen felt that she knew more than they did, and that they could never write
about the voice and heroism of her loved ones, those she had failed to love......
She was afraid she would forget, and sometimes wrote down fragments of that
history with her pen, leaving them in the library as anonymous manuscripts for
people to read.
As she read more
books, Shen Wen's mind power became stronger and stronger, and she was able to
reach far away like a person's eyesight, and manipulate multiple objects at the
same time. Sometimes when she meets someone who is seriously ill, if they look
like her former relatives, she will use her mind to sort out the patient's stagnant
blood vessels and save their life. But sometimes, if she doesn't like the
person, she will use her mind to twist the meridians in the person's body,
causing them some pain and suffering.
Humans changed,
the earth changed, the weather shifted, and people went into space. According
to earthly calculations, she has been in this up-and-down world for more than a
thousand years, and most traces of her time have disappeared without a trace,
and Shen Wen cherishes more and more all the records of that time. Ever since
she learned to manipulate the computer with her mind power, she has searched
more meticulously for all information about that era, from wild histories and
miscellaneous writings, novels and poems, to anecdotes of strange people. From
the games of national Go players, the relics of great calligraphers, from
natural and man-made disasters, to records of miscellaneous objects from the
marketplace......
In this time and
space, Shen Wen is not the only lingering spirit, but she is alone. She is not
close to any spirit, only immersed in her own world.
Many times she
felt those familiar shadows coming to seek her out and she rejected their
approach with her mind, blocking out communication. She did not want to touch
them, did not want to accept their forgiveness. Her shame was so obscure that
she could not face the light.
She had also
listened to those religious teachings many times over the centuries and knew
that if she gave up her obsessions, she could leave this land and go to the
other side. According to those monks, in the next life she would have a chance
to repay whatever was owed to her or to pay the debts she owed.
But she did not
want to, she was afraid that once she was gone, her own foolishness and
incompetence would no longer be so vivid, the death of her loved ones would no
longer hurt so much, the resentment she was filled with would no longer be so
deep, all her sins would dissipate, and she would have forgiven herself and
escaped the guilt she should have endured.
However, It was
an "injustice" that she could not accept. She could not let go of
herself, could not let go of her deep resentment. She did not want to let the
seventeen years of her life pass, so she kept it by drifting around forever.
After the
research on time reversal was reported, Shen Wen was always on the lookout for
news on this subject. She found her way to the world's largest physics
laboratory, navigating her way through the vast test chambers and machinery.
Finally, one day, the entire physics laboratory was on high alert as a
time-warping experiment unfolded under the observation of many scientists.
After the
research on time-space reversal was reported, Shen Wen always paid attention to
the news in this regard. She found the world's largest physics laboratory
and shuttled through the huge laboratory and machinery. Finally one day, the
entire physics laboratory was highly tense, and a space-time distortion
experiment was carried out under the observation of many scientists. Shen Wen
looked at the large sealed steel tank. The strong gravitational force changed
the vibration frequency of the material, causing time and space to stagnate.
She had another obsession - she wanted to go back to the life she couldn't let
go of.
The
thought grew stronger and stronger, and on a few occasions she felt that the
frequency around her had changed as a result. She knew that it took powerful
energy to cause even that brief distortion of space-time, and that she could
not manipulate it at all. But she was stubborn at heart, and since she could
stay for a thousand years, she could also stay for ten thousand years, a
hundred thousand years...... One day she would have to find her way back. She
began to focus on increasing her power of intention, meditating until she was
comfortable changing the frequency of objects around her. But before she could
cultivate her power to the point of being even more powerful, mankind had
really invented the time machine
Shen Wen knows
that if she still has a body, she must be shaking with excitement right now,
but now she is just gathering consciousness energy around her. She attached
herself to the core of the machine and "saw" the great energy
freezing time and space, the curving plane of history, the past coming to the
surface, she was like a small crawler on the edge of a flat sheet of paper,
which was rolled up so that she could easily reach the other side of the
unreachable past......
The endless
stream of people and affairs is enough to make any soul lost without return,
but Shen Wen's thousand years of persistence and gazing allowed her to catch a
familiarity as small as a grain of sand in the sea amidst the endless noise. It
was the corresponding frequency belonging to this soul of her own, and although
it was extremely faint and almost inaudible, Shen Wen's consciousness reached
out like a long thread and touched that body.... For a moment, Shen Wen's
soul swept away as if it had been tugged.
In an instant,
the balance of space-time energy was broken, and the powerful energy shattered
the huge space-time machine into dust. History is no longer...?
Ohhh that was a very intense opening. Her reincarnation is not because of someone's prayer, but because of a modern machine. And to wander around for more than a thousand years must be very lonely for her.
ReplyDeleteBut that part where she truly becomes a ghost and does what a ghost do is funny haha
It's saaad o(╥﹏╥)o
ReplyDeleteIt's saaad o(╥﹏╥)o
ReplyDeleteomg this chapter is so beautifully translated!!! <3 thank u~
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